Saturday, September 29, 2012

When I'm good, I'm very very good

When I'm bad I'm wicked!

Today was a good day. I went to my nephew's 1st birthday. Surrounded by cakes and biscuits and lollies etc... what did I eat? carrot sticks and sausages. I'm so proud of myself.

On a sad note, I tried on my skinny jeans and they are a bit tight right now... how could I let myself put so much weight on again? Why why why? Someone please tell me the answer, I seriously need to send my brain in for reprogramming. I don't want to backslide again. I really really really want to reach my goal then be able to maintain it.

Sadly when I'm having a bad day/week/month, my brain just doesn't care.
I put crappy food in my mouth and don't care.
I remind myself I won't fit my skinny jeans and I don't care...
Wish I knew what to do about that. Wish I could kick that 'me' in the butt and tell her to stop being so stupid! When I find the answer to all these problems I'll write a book :-)

Hope any of my readers that are left are doing well. Write to me. I love to hear from you!
ZG

6 comments:

  1. I'll buy your book - I have been bad too! But 1st October and I can't think of a better day to start fresh (again)...

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  2. I have found a way that is working. I have added a voice to my head that is a Dominant voice. When my "I don't care" whiny voice kicks in, I firmly tell her it doesn't matter that she doesn't care, she is NOT in charge and she will put that cookie down and walk away. I use more foul language than that; I even act out a scene in my head if I have to. I know this sounds nuts, but I have had the EXACT problem you describe and needed a new trick. This one is working so far... Good Luck!

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  3. I am in the same boat ... and I just read Angel's comment and will try it.

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  4. Me too. I'll have to try that as well.

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  5. I find myself giving in at the silliest moments. We need to give ourselves mantras and remind ourselves why we are doing this in the first place. I bought some diabetic chocolate and also some wheat free chocolate crisp bars for when I am really wanting for something, sometimes it works.

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  6. I am also wearing a thick bracelet and make myself look at it and ask myself questions such as "do your thighs need the extra food?" "can you wait 30 minutes before eating anything else?" and "do you honestly enjoy sabotaging yourself? Because I don't think you really do and that is what you are thinking of doing right now". Really, what is wrong with us? I truly believe it is a biological urge to keep us at a heavier weight because overriding the craving/ urge takes so much mindfulness. I find my body fighting so hard against my mind and wow, I have a STRONG body when it comes to wanting to sneak in a cheat!

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